is that you in your profile picture @roland_the_hutt ?

is it still happening? the "you making others sick" i mean? because i can think of a few people i wouldnt mind putting this on... does it work like that? harboring revenge fantasies lol

Hi @H8ME , what are YOUR 2am thoughts then?

Hi im stillnotyours (lol).
I found this forum through some comments on a youtube video. im just a pretty fucked up person i think (not my fault i promise), and chatting to others who are not afraid of that is helpful and also so much more interesting than talking to normies who have no good stories, just tons of judgement.
Anyways, i gave the questions you suggested a go:

1. What do you think about when you wake up in the middle of the night? if im really alone, also i get weird cravings for hot chocolate with those tiny marshmallows when i wake up

2. What made you cry recently?

   this is so beautiful. the kind of crying you do because you long to be somewhere, so bad.

3. What feeling do you associate with home? doors that wont lock, twitching curtains, cookies and 15 hour sleeps.

4. What are you most afraid of and why? to disappear, probably into myself.

5. Is there anything in your life that, looking back, you would like to undo? nothing.

6. What's the strangest smell you've ever smelled? ground-up klonopin mixed with warm milk.


When I look in the mirror after the sun has gone down (or before it comes up), its exactly what I see staring back at me. i never feel any leaking, but you are right @crystalclear99 , thats definitely what it looks like. like gelatine or something.

how are you holding up? i hope you are okay.

@e-v-mondberg how do you pronounce that? like "hook up?" thats so strange.

i feel even lonelier when i'm around people though. like at big parties. i get overwhelmed and retreat into myself so deeply and completely that sometimes it takes days for me to crawl back out.
in some ways i think hanging out with a phantom (do you mean a "fevercritter"= or what kind of phantom?) would be preferable to human company. i just cant deal with more CNS overload, and that seems to be a human-specific issue with me.

@roland_the_hutt that's so gross