I am Anika. Hi! In this forum I will be OOC, OutOfCharacter. What a relief. I love life and hate the narrow idea of reality I was presented by parents and in school. I graduated last year. I dream of being the mean but cute goth gf of a very masculine phantom. Or a cat in a video game that you cant pet by pressing X. Dont judge I get scared very easily but I can also we very fierce and curious.

• What do you think about when you wake up in the middle of the night?
  I make plans on how I should live my lifes. I imagine different worlds and parallel universes and all the things I could do. Sometimes I long for these worlds so much that I almost burst.

• What made you cry recently?
  I often cry, but usually for a good reason. Last time I cried was because of my grandpa. I miss him so much. There's an armchair at my parent's house that still smells of him. Sometimes it feels like he's here in the room with me.

• What feeling do you associate with home?
  Letting go, being understood.

• What are you most afraid of and why?
  Of death. We have a love-hate-relationship.

• Is there anything in your life that, looking back, you would like to undo?
  I would like to do it all again, again and again.

• What's the strangest smell you've ever smelled?
  Deodorants for men

post pictures here of places and fevercritters that you can't categorize yet. maybe we can find patterns? or maybe someone has seen something similar to yours?

hi @xoxo666 i encountered blinddate after a big fight with my boyfriend when i had a panic attack. i had hickeys on my neck for several days, nobody believes me. i didn't take a picture of it sryyyyy
@rottenxD not funny. the question is rather how can i keep it away from me. i experience enough shit when i go outside the door that's all i need

you meet her in the shape of children or teenagers. i should mention that in buchholz where i'm from, the creature lucy was known before the fevercritters started appearing, as a character who you might meet when you come home wasted after a party, or when you are generally not doing so good, and when the weather is bad. some say that she is an earlier version of yourself. fact: the character is having a renaissance atm, everyone is talking about it, which is why i wanted to share it on here as well.
anyone who meets lucy gets hit by a feeling of longing and melancholy for their own life being wasted/passing by. she calls out for you full of promise: "come with me! come on, come oooon." she wants you to follow her, she noclips through surfaces, f.ex. ponds, wardrobes, mirrors, trees. "portals", i'd say. then eventually she disappears, leaving you behind. i experienced it myself but i didn't follow her. the feeling stayed inside of me for two days - this immense longing for life, and at the same time the urge just to lie down and decompose.
this is where i met her:

postet hier bilder von orten und von fevercrittern, die ihr noch nicht einordnen könnt. vielleicht finden wir muster? oder vllt hat jemand etwas ähnliches gesehen wie ihr?

sie ist in der gestalt von kindern oder jugendlichen anzutreffen. ich muss dazu sagen, dass die gestalt lucy bei uns in buchholz schon vor dem auftauchen der fevercritter bekannt war als character den du siehst wenn du wasted von parties nach hause kommst oder allgemein nicht auf der höhe bist und bei schlechtem wetter. manche sagen sie ist eine frühere version von dir selbst. fact: der character erlebt gerade eine renaissance und viele sprechen davon, deshalb wollte ich es hier teilen.
wer lucy trifft spürt sehnsucht und melancholie, sehr heftig sogar, ob des eigenen verschwendeten/vergehenden lebens. verheißungsvoll bittet sie dich, ihr zu folgen: "kommt mit! na komm, na koooomm". sie will, dass du ihr folgst. sie noclipped durch oberflächen, z.B. teiche, wandschränke, spiegel, bäume. ich würde sagen "portale". so verschwindet sie schließlich und lässt dich zurück. ich habe es selbst erlebt, aber ich bin ihr nicht gefolgt. zwei tage lang blieb das gefühl in mir - zugleich große sehnsucht nach dem leben und gleichzeitig das gefühl, sich einfach nur hinzulegen und zu dekompostieren.
hier habe ich sie getroffen:

hi @xoxo666 mir ist blinddate nach einem heftigen streit mit meinem freund begegnet als ich eine panikattacke hatte. ich hatte davon mehrere tage knutschflecke am hals, niemand glaubt mir. habe davon kein foto gemacht sryyyy
@Drianne nicht lustig. die frage ist eher wie kann ich das von mir fernhalten. erlebe genug scheiße wenn ich vor die tür gehe das hat mir noch gefehlt